The Realization of Interpretation

[This journal entry was originally written on October 22nd, 1997. As always, Jay’s current thoughts on this entry are in the post script – Dawn]

Everything we think, everything we feel, everything we see, everything we say, everything we do; is all a product of interpretation. The life you are living, the thoughts you are thinking, the emotions you are feeling are all interpretations. The way we interpret the world becomes our world. The way we interpret others’ actions determines how we react. The key to finding Happiness is hidden in interpretation.

We learn ways of interpreting and dealing with the world, and that becomes our world. The world “out there” is completely different for you than it is for me, yet it is the same world. The world is divinely indifferent. Nothing dies, nothing is born, nothing ever happens that is good or bad. It simply is. What we see with our individual eyes is not in the least bit objective. It is before it hits our eyes, but we cannot look at it objectively. We see it through years of experience which has turned into the interpretation of the moment. Your whole life is packed into your every glance. Continue reading “The Realization of Interpretation”

Cycles, Spirals and Immortality (Oh, My!)

[This was taken from a journal entry that was written on October 21st, 1997. As always, Jay’s current thoughts about this entry are in the post script. Enjoy! ~ Dawn]

     We all move within cycles. Cycles within cycles within cycles. We can see many cycles, and often believe we therefore know who we are. However, these cycles hide cycles which we do not always see… and these cycles hide cycles which we seldom see… and these cycles hide cycles which are almost never seen. Each and every level of these cycles determine who we are as much as the previous, as much as the next…

     Here’s the kicker: There’s no such thing as a cycle. Every cycle you live, seen or unseen, is not a cycle at all… it is a spiral. When you look down at a spiral, you see it expanding outward or inward, depending on how you look at it. If you look at it from the side, you see it going up or down, again depending on how you look at it. This is what our cycles do, it is the very nature of what they are. They either expand outward, or confine with every ring. They either climb to new highs, or sink to new lows… every time any cycle is repeated or acted upon. Continue reading “Cycles, Spirals and Immortality (Oh, My!)”

The Clean Slate (and Other Myths)

[This journal entry is from October 16th, 1997. As always, Jay’s current thoughts about this entry are in the post script – Dawn]

     Not many of us are fortunate enough to be raised in Spirit, by people who live in Spirit. Let me rephrase, lest I am misunderstood: everyone lives in Spirit, yet few do so consciously and intentionally, therefore the amount of Spirit they acknowledge in their daily life is quite by accident, and subject to falter unexpectedly.

     Please don’t fault these people for not living in Spirit. Everyone does the best they can with what they have, and those who stray furthest from the Path suffer their own endless torture. They may have raised and taught you in the wrong ways, but it was inevitably the result of being raised and taught the wrong ways themselves, by people who were raised and taught in the wrong ways. It can be traced back into prehistoric times, and you can blame great grandaddy Og for your misery, but I guarantee that will do nothing but pass it on. Continue reading “The Clean Slate (and Other Myths)”

Ultimate Responsibility


     I took a small chunk from another entry to elaborate on this week [The entry was originally written on October 16th, 1997 – Dawn]. The entry goes in another direction after the first couple paragraphs, and I wanted to address what I like about this part separately from what I mostly don’t like about the rest of it. So, here it is, two paragraphs that I felt should be written about first.

     Don’t forget to check out last weeks blog post, “About My Next Book”, to read the first chapter of “Walking Between Worlds; Book I: Demons & Angels”, set to release in December. Thanks for reading!

Ultimate Responsibility

     We are born to particular parents, into a particular situation, for particular reasons. We choose our own reason, we choose our own situation, we choose our own parents. Each individual’s upbringing, even in the earliest years, has volumes upon volumes of experience, of potential learning. These volumes are rarely recognized as being anything conscious: somewhere along the line they simply form who you are. Continue reading “Ultimate Responsibility”

Life Is…

     Once again, I am going to step outside the typical weekly blog guidelines with this post. Last week was the second page from a journal that we will be looking at for a while, but I admit it wasn’t the entire entry. I liked the whole entry up to the last paragraph, and made comments last week on what I think now about what I wrote then. Now I would like to share that final paragraph. I didn’t single out this paragraph because I found it particularly brilliant; quite the contrary, actually. My “#WordyMoFo” mind went off as soon as I read it, and I knew I had to save it for a post of its own.

     Here it is, the final paragraph: Continue reading “Life Is…”

In The Beginning…

     This week’s blog marks a change; an ending and a new beginning that really is a continuation. In short, I feel an explanation of sorts is in order. Some time ago, I gave Dawn a stack of journals to extract material from and type up entries for me to write commentaries on that would become my weekly blog. She was delighted to find a notebook that had entries with titles and clear beginnings and endings. She went to work typing them up and putting them in my inbox, I went to work writing commentaries, and the blog was born.

     I couldn’t help but notice that an earlier journal had been bypassed, one that had a lot of entries that I am particularly fond of. I had to ask, and the ensuing conversation went something like this: Continue reading “In The Beginning…”


[This article was originally written by Jay in four sections. The first section was written on June 24th, 2001. The second was started on June 26th, 2001, then picked back up again, mid-sentence and without missing a beat, on February 2nd, 2002. Jay wrote the third and fourth sections March 18-19th, 2003. As always, you can read what Jay thinks about this subject in 2014 in the post script. Happy reading! – Dawn]


     Happiness. Happiness is the path, it is the journey, it is the vehicle, it is the fuel; and it is, of course, the destination. Happiness.

     Thwarted happiness causes all sorts of ugly circumstances, from the harmless complainer to the mass murderer. Yet happiness pursued can change the most destructive person into a useful and productive member of society.

     It’s been said that we all must have something to live for, whether it’s consciously or unconsciously. And it’s true, I think: something motivates each of us each morning to get out of bed and do what we do throughout the day. What we do is a physical manifestation of the “why” behind it, and thus we make our lives the way we want to. Continue reading “Happiness”

The Consciously Created Blueprint

[This journal entry is from May 23rd, 2006. As always, Jay’s current thoughts about this entry are in the post script – Dawn]

The Consciously Created Blueprint

     We each have a blueprint, a design by which we live our lives. It’s typically something that was created long ago, unintentionally and erroneously, yet we accept it completely and often without question. It is only by consciously creating and living by a new blueprint that we can be happy.

     No one ever achieved happiness by obeying what another person or other people told or showed them. Others can help us, others can guide us; but the only person who can learn who you truly wish to be and become it is you. Continue reading “The Consciously Created Blueprint”

Negativity and You

[This journal entry is from February 25th, 2005. As always, Jay’s current thoughts about this entry are in the post script – Dawn]

Negativity and You

     Negativity is not you. It’s just not you. Negativity is always transient; and as Spirit, you are Eternal. Spirit always was, always is and always will be. A moment of negativity, even if that moment lasts a lifetime, is going to pass. Negative crap uses its energy up, but Spirit is energy. Negativity has energy and power, as much as we decide to give it; but Spirit doesn’t just have energy, it is energy.

     You can spend all day, all week , all month on eradicating a negative from your life. It may seem overwhelming, it may be tough; but you will succeed if you are relentless. You could spend a lifetime (or many lifetimes) trying to be rid of Spirit, and you will be no closer to your goal when you finally give up than you were when you started. Continue reading “Negativity and You”

The Mind’s Errant Thoughts

[This journal entry is from February 22nd, 2005. As always, Jay’s current thoughts about this entry are in the post script – Dawn]

The Mind’s Errant Thoughts

     It’s amazing, the kinds of thoughts that the mind can choose to indulge in. So many useless, pointless, mindless thoughts that seem to come from nowhere and lead to nothing. It’s a bit comical, and it could be a bit embarrassing if it wasn’t seen as being comical instead.

     I know there’s a great deal of negativity in many minds, and I’m quite grateful to have worked through a lot of that. I vaguely remember what it was like, though… I’d crack a joke, no one would think it was funny (or no one would get it), my thoughts would tell me I was stupid and lame; and I would feel stupid and lame. Next time I’d keep my mouth shut and my thoughts would tell me I was stupid and lame for not taking advantage of such a great opportunity to crack a joke. When your mind has a negative lean to it, it doesn’t really matter what you do; your mind will find and exploit the negative aspect of whatever you did or refrained from doing. If there’s no negative aspect to the situation, your mind will manufacture one. Continue reading “The Mind’s Errant Thoughts”